Obsessions, Confusions and Confessions...
It's the one person in the world you can't cheat ever. Of course you know who it is... it is you. Yeah.
Well I've been photographing for quite a while.
And I must say that I am really obsessed with it. I just want to take good photos, process them, make'em look good and post it on some social network, participate in online contests, get likes and so on. I am obsessed with it to such an extent that I am always on the hunt to capture that "moment" and really not enjoy it. I only go out to shoot and not live the moment. And if I miss the moment for any reason, I get anxious/depressed/tired... *sigh*...! And in this obsession of capturing moments, I might have captured a few very good ones but honestly I seldom got to enjoy them. The opportunity was tons in numbers and the willingness, just none.
And yeah, I talked to people and they suggested me not to go out with the camera. And then when I did that, I go there, feel the beauty, enjoy and come back. But deep within, there's always a thread running, whispering - "if you had got the camera, you'd have captured it forever/you missed it". Vicious circle.. huh!
And it reminds of the quote from the movie "After the sunset"-
The world is divided up between people who like to watch the sunset and those who don't.
People like you are never happy.
You're anxious, type-A, egocentric perfectionists who can't sit still and die alone with a million bucks and a thousand regrets.
The people who can relax, enjoy the sunset, hold hands at the end of the day...
They're the happy ones.
I think I fall into the third another category - "People who want to relax, enjoy the sunset, hold hands at the end of the day but cannot".
Not sure what would help me but for now I continue the hunt of capturing the "moment"...
And here's few more pics I shot recently.
Update: Added two new pics -
Thanks for viewing. Be right back :)
Well I've been photographing for quite a while.
And I must say that I am really obsessed with it. I just want to take good photos, process them, make'em look good and post it on some social network, participate in online contests, get likes and so on. I am obsessed with it to such an extent that I am always on the hunt to capture that "moment" and really not enjoy it. I only go out to shoot and not live the moment. And if I miss the moment for any reason, I get anxious/depressed/tired... *sigh*...! And in this obsession of capturing moments, I might have captured a few very good ones but honestly I seldom got to enjoy them. The opportunity was tons in numbers and the willingness, just none.
And yeah, I talked to people and they suggested me not to go out with the camera. And then when I did that, I go there, feel the beauty, enjoy and come back. But deep within, there's always a thread running, whispering - "if you had got the camera, you'd have captured it forever/you missed it". Vicious circle.. huh!
And it reminds of the quote from the movie "After the sunset"-
The world is divided up between people who like to watch the sunset and those who don't.
People like you are never happy.
You're anxious, type-A, egocentric perfectionists who can't sit still and die alone with a million bucks and a thousand regrets.
The people who can relax, enjoy the sunset, hold hands at the end of the day...
They're the happy ones.
I think I fall into the third another category - "People who want to relax, enjoy the sunset, hold hands at the end of the day but cannot".
Not sure what would help me but for now I continue the hunt of capturing the "moment"...
And here's few more pics I shot recently.
The bird and love birds at Cubbon park, Bangalore:
Lover's spot:
The "fly away" series:
The lonesome road:
Panaromic view near Bhyramangala lake:
HDR pics of the abandoned house:
Update: Added two new pics -
Thanks for viewing. Be right back :)
The lonesome road. That kind of makes me think of your perspective on life sometimes Krish. You capture it all the time in your pictures. That is to say you have a very unique perspective where you want to enjoy the beauty and serenity at hand... but there's always that unseen thing over the horizon or further down the road calling you forward. I don't think that means you don't know how to enjoy a sunset and relax. Capturing those moments from a unique perspective is just how you enjoy them.
ReplyDeleteThere's no right way or wrong way to enjoy or find serenity. You find them in photographs. A crowded market full of bustling, frantic people may seem like the opposite of serenity as it happens in the moment, but once you've frozen it in a picture, there is your sunset. There is your moment of serenity where you stop and say, "Ah, this is what was really happening when it all seemed so fast and chaotic!"
You have a way of capturing both movement (birds in flight, people in motion) and stillness (the empty road leading on into the sunset, the empty rooms) that boils everything down to that 'enjoy the sunset' moment you speak of being so personally elusive above. What remains in your photos is simply a celebration of life and it's emotions, which is really what staring into a sunset is all about. Taking time to enjoy something beautiful in front of you while being reflective on what you have experienced already.
You inspire me!! Keep up the fantastic work, my friend!
Johnnyboy!! Thanks much for your thoughtful comments. Update: I recently tried enjoying a sunrise and I really did :D
Deletegood photos vamsi...but it was ur confession that caught my attention... nearly same was my scene, i live at a very beautiful place( though it is not a necessity of capturing good photos)... and i used to take hundreds of snaps each day...sunrise to sunset ..but couldnt' get enough of that...always feel anxiety. then one day i decided that i should enjoy nature and not be always in a mindset of 'capturing the moment' ...for a photograph only preserves the memory..and when u always have the option of visiting this place again and again, u can actually refresh ur memory and actually see a different perspective during the next visit( though this applies only for nature photography)... the problem lies when u want to share, post on sites and all. I have seen that after an stage this leads to vanity and narcissistic tendencies and u actually cease to enjoy . cutting short, my advice is u enjoy the moment and not be in a hurry to capture it. My personal experience is that once i got out of that hasty mindset, and am at peace with myself, i can actually enjoy the nature AND take all the worthy shots as well. so u see , if mindset is on taking snaps then enjoyment is a casualty but when the other way round focus is on enjoyment, beautiful photography is a corollary. so just chill. btw, the first and last photos of this blog are my favourites( i think u placed them also in such a way)
ReplyDeleteand u should make a trip here my friend
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Hey Shikhar, good to know that I am not the only one who feels the same way!! :D
DeleteI recently tried to suppress the obsession and yeah I must say I had a better time both enjoying and photographing. Also, I would visit your place for sure, waiting for the season when the mountains are blossoming with flowers!! :)